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Wednesday, October 24th, 2001
8:05 pm
I haven't wrote in over a month. I guess I've missed out on talking about a lot of stuff but that's ok. I don't feel like catching up on all that stuff so I guess I'll just start on how my life is now. Things are going good for me. School is ok and my friends are all on my cool side right now. Everything is good, nothing special or exciting.

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Saturday, September 15th, 2001
9:00 pm - it's been a while
I realized it's been over a month since I've wrote in here. School has started back and it's been really good for me. Everyone knows that recently we had a terrorist attack on the nation so I'm going to take some time to vent about it. I think that it is so ridiculous taht in a civilized world we have to deal with things like this. I feel angry and sad about this. Innocent people lost their lives because someone has something against the United States government. I think that even though all this evil has happened it has done some good for our nation. We've had a lot more prayer and a lot more patroitism. This has brought our nation together. It just goes to show that it's amazing how God works; he can bring good out of something that seems like there could be no good in it. He turns the Satan's works against him and makes it all for God's glory.

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Saturday, August 11th, 2001
11:55 pm
Let me see, Friday night I went to PB to the mall. It wasn't as much fun as I expected but it was good because I found a really cute skirt and a shirt on sale for really cheap. Then today I got some more new clothes. Then I highlighted my hair and cut it. It's a little different but I like it and that's all that matters. Tommorrow I'm going to church to see my cousin get baptised and then I'm going out to eat. After that I guess I'll just chill around the house and maybe clean up my room.
Since Gov. School I've been keeping in touch with some people. I talk to this guy DJ almost every day. I had such a major crush on him and now he asked me to go out with him. I want to but I don't think the long distance thing will work out for me. There is someone at school who has a special place in my heart and I want to try to talk to him when we go back to school.

current mood: okay

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Sunday, August 5th, 2001
10:11 pm
This weekend I went to TN to see my grandparents. It was good, I don't get to see them very often and I got to go shopping. I really hate being home from Governor's School. I miss all my friends up there so much. And I never have anything to do. I am not looking forward to school this year, and I only have 2 more weeks. I want to just skip my senior year and go strait to college. It's going to be so hard for me to go from a place where everyone was so open minded to little close minded Bearden.

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Wednesday, August 1st, 2001
1:53 pm
Since I've been home I've been bored most of the time. Saturday night I went riding around with one of my friends. Yesterday me and one of my friends went job hunting. Other than that I've been so bored and wishing I could go back to Gov. School, because there was always something to do up there. This weekend I'm going out of town to see my grandparents.

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Saturday, July 28th, 2001
11:12 pm
Hey! Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm home!

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Saturday, July 21st, 2001
4:08 pm
I only have one more week at Governor's School. I'm starting to get sad because I'm going to miss everyone so much. I am ready to get back and see my friends. But tonight is going to be fun, so I have to quit thinking about sad stuff. We are having a dance and it's going to be set up like a rave and have techno music and stuff. I think it will be cool. Tommorrow Samantha might come see me so that will be cool. Umm...not much else to say so I'll go.

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Wednesday, July 18th, 2001
3:42 pm
Everything has been going great up here. Things have kind of got dull but it's relaxing. I had a little stressful time for a while that some of you may know about, but I've got it all figured out and I've decided to the best thing for me. I got 3 letters today in the mail! My friend Liz wrote me and my two home girls back in B-town and T-town wrote me. I was so excited. I wrote Christi yesterday and mailed it today so I was excited to see she had wrote me.

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Sunday, July 15th, 2001
2:06 pm
Yesterday was awsome. I've started working out and I could start to tell yesterday. One of my goals for the summer was to read more and I started on that. Then there was a costume party and I dressed up as a Rock Star and lots of people told me I looked really cool so I was feeling great. I danced and had a great time at the party. It was cool! I haven't had anything in my mail box the past few days. I've been missing getting mail....(hint, hint). Well, I am fixing to go. Bye!

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Sunday, July 8th, 2001
1:51 pm
Hey peeps! I'm going back to Conway today. Sorry I didn't get to see all of my friends while I was home, I really wanted to. But I did have fun Friday night at the sleep over. Thanks Rachel, it was great. Other than the sleep over, I've been pretty bored while I've been home. Kind of ready to go back. I'll be in touch with all of my friends and if you want my address or phone number up there email me and I'll give it to you. Bye!

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Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
1:47 pm - I'm Home!
Well, not for good yet. Just until Sunday, then I'll be making my way back to Conway. I love Governor's School. I want to live there forever. Not that I wouldn't miss my friends and family, because I would very dearly, it's just that it is a whole new experience up there. No stuck up people, no prejudice, no stress because of grades. It's great. I wish school could be like that. This is an experience that has truly changed my life. I've made wonderful friends, found "love" a couple of times :), and been able to make my own decisions without my mom staring over my back(I love my mom but she is over-protective). I think most of you have my address up there but if you don't you can get it from someone and write me. I love it when I get mail! Well, hopefully I'll be in contact with some of you while I'm home. Bye!

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Sunday, June 24th, 2001
12:59 pm
Hey! Haven't wrote to you guys in a while. I learned a lesson up here: No matter where you go guys are always gonna cause stress(that is if you let them, of course). I thought if I got out of B-town I would be stress free. Single and free was my motto for the summer but then I fell for this guy up here and it's great and terrible at the same time. I'm always asking myself, "What in the hell are you doing?" when I'm sitting in front of the mirror in the morning curling my hair or trying to get my eyeliner just right. I'm not saying it's bad to dress up or look nice, but when you aren't doing it for you it's not cool. So today I threw on a T-shirt and some jeans and pulled my hair back in a ponytail and put on some make-up and looked like I wanted to, not like I thought someone else wanted me to. And I'm so much happier today because of it! I have to remember that my happiness comes before any guys because guys come and go. But I am having a great time up here even with the guy problems. Miss you all!

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Thursday, June 14th, 2001
10:54 pm
It has been 2 weeks since I wrote. Let me catch up. I went to Girl's State June 3-8. I made some new friends and learned some stuff but was also bored out of my mind some of the time. But I had lots of free time to think which was good, because I haven't been able to just think in a while. Since I've been home I haven't been up to much. I went over to Rachel's and watched a movie. Then me, Alicia, and Christi went to PB. We met up with Alicia's friend Lacy and she got us into the club. It was cool. The night ended too soon. But other than that I've been sitting at the house being bored. I learned to sew! Made some sleep shorts and a cute skirt. Other than that, not much else.

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2001
9:06 pm
Today was the last day of school for me. I am excited in a way, but also sad because I'm going to be gone so I won't see any of my friends. I'm gonna kick it with my special friend tommorrow and Alicia, my other special friend. I'm in a good mood and hope to stay that way. I like being happy!

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Monday, May 28th, 2001
3:22 pm
Well, not much going on right now. I am just sitting here wishing some of my friends would get online so we can talk.
My weekend was fun. I went to my family reunion in Kentucky. We went to the movies and saw Pearl Harbor, a great movie. Saturday we went to Six Flags and it was so much fun. Also my grandma won $10,000 at the casino. I was so happy for her.
I loved my weekend, fun and totally stress free. I am not looking forward to going back to school tommorrow!

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Wednesday, May 23rd, 2001
2:29 pm
Well, I wrote in a while so it's time to update all you little "fat-faced" kids on my life. After graduation I went to Sparkman to a party. It was fun swimming. I got close with an old friend and realized I've kind of been neglecting her and our friendship and now I'm gonna quit that. Ok, enough mushy stuff, back to my weekend...Saturday I spent most of the day at Alicia's house and then I went home, cause it was my mom's birthday. Sunday I went to church. Monday I had school. Yesterday I had school and then I went to a baseball game with Alicia and spent the night with her. Her boyfriend was playing, and it was his birthday. And my special friend came to the game and we talked and flirted and got to spend some QT together. I really like him.
Friday I won't be at school! I am going to my family reuinion this weekend. It should be ok. Well, that's about it.

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Friday, May 18th, 2001
2:25 pm
Tonight is graduation. There will be a few seniors I will miss but most of them I am glad to see go. Now we are the seniors!
Me and TG have been doing much better since we decided to be friends. We talk a lot more and don't fight and have gotten a lot closer as friends. And today he signed my yearbook and wrote something really nice, I was suprised. We flirt and I'm just really happy with our relationship as friends.

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Tuesday, May 15th, 2001
9:32 pm
Since the last time I wrote I told TG that me and him were just friends from now on. I think that is best cause that way we can't get mad at each other. I have a jealousy problem and this way I won't have to deal with that. And plus I don't think I'm ready for a relationship. I thought I was but now I don't think I am. I'm happy with the way things are now as long as me and him really are friends and still talk. Other than that nothing has been going on. School has been kind of boring. Of course my friends are fun, we just haven't done anything that I can think of in paticular.

current mood: satisfied

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Sunday, May 13th, 2001
8:01 pm
Prom was this weekend and it was so much fun! At times it was boring but that is with all things. I felt very pretty and my date was fun to be with. Dinner was good. After prom was ok but I was so sleep that I went home early. I slept most of the day today and then some friends came over. So my weekend was pretty fun.

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Wednesday, May 9th, 2001
7:26 pm
Today me and TG are through for good. I feel bad cause I really wanted to be with him, and I gave up a lot so I could, and I really wanted it to work. I feel like I wasted so much time and energy and feelings on him in the past 3 months. I've liked him for 3 months and a lot of our times together have been good, but here lately it's been bad. He's hurt me too much and it's hard for me to forgive him. I don't know if I ever can. I wrote him a letter today and told him how I felt and maybe I took it to far, but I think he got the point. I guess now he knows that he really hurt me. I told him not to talk to me, not to look at me, not to be around me, and not to even think about me ever again. And I told him that I don't think we could even be friends ever again. I don't want it that way, but if we even talk it will just hurt me more. When he's hurt me it's hard for me to even look at him without crying. I have got to be strong tommorrow and not let him see me cry. He's the only person who has ever made me so upset that I was sick to my stomach. That can't be good. I am so confused because I want to be with him but I know I can't. Fighting with yourself is hard.

current mood: confused

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